Lumière & Letters

  I have reactivated my Netflix account again and I've been spending the last 3 nights Netflix-ing and nothing else. It's nothing new. I basically re-watched the movies that I had watched in the past. I just want to feel familiar things again. I had another episode of quarter-life crisis early this week (Monday at 9am in the morning to be precise) and the one thing that made it into the action items list is to take up personal projects just so you know, to keep things/life going/more bearable. I have a couple of things in mind but being me, I might have overthink it and it got me into this place where I begin to wonder where I am able to stick with them (hence the Netflix-ing). There was a time when I was so sure that I would stick to the plans that I made for myself. I was that determined and that focused. Now I'm googling about how to stay focused in life and not be distracted.  But life is nothing but distractions, isn't it? And I never am able to leave things alon...

 Well, I'm not exactly still in a lockdown anymore. Everyone is back to office already (at least mine is) and we can go almost everywhere now. Just like how it used to be but not quite, right?  I'm sure everyone is going through mad changes too. Some have gone/are going through the good ones, some are not. I have my fair share of both I would say. The beginning was really difficult because the pandemic was still new to everyone and there were so much confusions and questions and fears. I didn't even let my parents leave the house. Work was especially difficult at that point because businesses were in shock too and everyone was trying to find ways to keep going. I was a mess at that time. It didn't help that everyone was kept at home for a long period of time too. That plus work schedule plus the pandemic that was going on kind of took a toll on my mental health. It was, honestly, a bad time. I have made some changes in my life ever since, but it was so bad that even now...